NO.3 Camille Delaune, 20 - May 6, 2018.

“Probably about a year ago I made a pact with myself that I would try and experience a moment, one moment, even for 10 seconds, of true connected beauty with the world everyday. Because when I think about it, it feels so unreasonable that we can’t just experience that once a day. Because beauty is so present and everywhere and constant. I really try to do that but you know, schedules and classes and life makes it hard to constantly connect in that way. But, I have really felt some intense moments of spirituality, they’re almost always when I am alone. The time I can remember that is most vivid to me- it was one of the first times I’d felt it in a real way. I mean, I didn’t feel any of this stuff until after my brother died. Not at all. I just didn’t, not that I didn’t believe in it, just never felt it. It was probably 6 months after my brother died, he died in September, and in February, during Mardi Gras, I had a moment, and I will never forget it. I just remember it being the most overwhelming brimming over of love. It made me feel so amazing. I love Mardi Gras, and I was in New Orleans at my cousin and his amazing wife’s house. I love them so much. We were have a little pre-Mardi Gras party, early morning like 7am. Sun was rising, I have a wig on with my Mardi Gras clothes and I just walked out onto the front porch and it was like.... I mean the street was gold. GOLD. Just absolutely glittering with sunrise. All you could hear were birdsongs and I had a cup of coffee in my hands, or I don’t know, might’ve been a cup of grapefruit vodka or some sort of delicious drink that I love. And I had this moment of... oh my god... this is God. This is God right here. My brother, Joseph felt so present to me and I felt like he was just pouring into all of my pores. I felt like I could smell him. He was so present in that moment. It was so beautiful and it was just a moment of absolute bliss and contentment. God was absolutely real. I will never forget it. I wish I could return to that moment and feel that bliss again. And I do in certain ways but I remember that moment being a really important one.”